We are expecting our little Mason in 2 weeks now! We are getting all the final things needed for his arrival. I get so excited knowing he will be here soon and that he has made it this far! He truly is a fighter.
We had a special baby shower last weekend, it was perfect. It was all our close friends & family. I was so wonderful to celebrate Mr. Mason. Everyone is so excited to meet him...and that is one of my biggest worries... that people wont be excited to meet Mason, as they were for Colby. That people will treat him differently, or treat us differently because Mason has down syndrome.
Its been a rough few weeks dealing with all the emotions that I have been feeling, emotions that i haven't really addressed yet, but now I have to because Mason will be here soon.
I worry about the future with Mason,
If I will bond with Mason,
If people will treat him differently,
If we will lose friends,
If i will always feel that bit of sadness that Mason isnt like his "normal" brother Colby,
If Colby later regrets having a brother with a disability,
If we can handle all the therapy & surgeries ahead of us,
If life will ever be "normal" for us,
If Mason will be loved by everyone else.
If I can handle having to continually explaining that Mason has down syndrome,
If people will avoid us,
If people will think he is beautiful,
Sadly I cant answer any of these questions. This is where God steps in and calms my heart. All I know is that WE LOVE MASON, and that is all that matters right now.
Right now Cory & I have been praying for the strength to get through all of this. To be strong for our son, and to praise God for our blessings.