Today I feel like I am holding my breath, waiting for "something" to happen. Im not sure what the "something" is that I am waiting for....just that "something" has to happen.
We have at least 1 Dr. appt a week right now (sometimes more). I keep waiting for that "something" at each appointment. I feel like we are going to get that "something" tomorrow. Yes , tomorrow. Tomorrow we have a ultrasound to check on Mason. Check his hygroma, his edema, and to check for hydrop. ***hydrops are fluid around his organs, hydrops are 100% fatal in Masons case*** I just have this feeling deep down.... that we will get some news tomorrow...just not sure if it will be good news or bad.
There are 2 scenarios possible tomorrow:
#1: GOOD NEWS: hygroma is smaller, no more edema, and no hydrops.
#2: Bad New: hygroma is larger, edema is worse, and there are hydrops present.
We are praying ever so hard for #1! Because I dont think I can handle #2. If Mason shows the hydrops we will be induced to try to "help him " before the hydrops do their damage. This mommy isnt ready for that. Not yet, not ever.
Before each ultrasound, i secretly pray that Mason pops on the screen and he is perfectly healthy. No hygroma or heart defect. That has yet to happen, but I will continue to pray it does.
So for all those who are praying with us.... pray tomorrow morning brings us good news.
(our appointment is at 8:45am)