Friday, July 15, 2011
Do they know how wonderful...
Last night was hard for me.
One of my "online friends" passed on the news that another lady we knew (who was pregnant & had found out by amnio that the baby boy has down syndrome) decided she couldn't "handle" having a child with DS....and terminated the pregnancy yesterday.
My heart broke.
Tears filled my eyes as I told Cory what had happened.
To think that someone would terminate because things weren't "Perfect"....but they don't understand...because a child with DS is perfect..truly , wonderfully, and innocently perfect.
I looked at Mason after I told Cory and tears started to flow. I picked Mason up and snuggled my sleeping boy. Breathed in the sweet smell of his freshly washed hair, felt the smooth skin on my lips as I kissed his cheek. He is perfect.
I looked back at Cory, who now looked upset, and he said " they just don't know". And its true. They don't know...and many wont ever know. They say 96% terminate a down syndrome pregnancy.... it breaks my heart. To think the world wouldn't want a child like Mason.
Think of it like this...There are 100 pregnant women in a room ... all with DS diagnosis.. only 4 would keep the babies. 4 out of 100.
I am one of those 4
I wonder if we have made an impact on anyone, enough for them to realize that they can do it. That its not as scary as everyone makes it out to be. I also wonder if Mason has made an impact on anyone? Would they keep their baby if they had a prenatal diagnosis.
Did I ever think I would be a parent to a child with special needs?
I really never thought anything like this would ever happen to us. I thought we were immune to things like this...This kinda stuff happens to other people..not us. But God knew that we would love Mason, no matter what challenges arise. We didn't know if we had the strength to do it. Then we saw him for the first time, and we realized that Mason was just Mason. He was the baby that we fought to get here, he is our son. A diagnosis of down syndrome didn't change the fact that we love him, and maybe we even love him more because he has down syndrome.
I sometime wonder if other people love there children as much as we love ours? After having to fight so hard to get Mason here...The love for him is so strong. Stronger than I ever knew.
Until you have to fight for your child to make it into the world... you don't know how deep this love is. Its unexplainable.
And its no where near the love that God has for us.....
We have a cardio appt on Monday... we will know soon the exact date of surgery.
Thank you again for the continued prayers
Posted by Mrs. B at 6:39 AM